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收到您寄來的生日咭，您說您是一個不懂得表達自己的人，我又何嘗不是呢？
過了今天，我就是三十六歲了，這也該是我渡過不開心的一個生日了；各有前因莫羨人，對不起，我真的辦不到。這一年來我總是鬱鬱不歡，有趣的是每逢有朋友覺得失落時，我總是充當著開心果的角色，可是當我感覺要塌掉時，卻連一個可以給我傾訴的對像也沒有。知道嗎？我特意在這晚上把電話掛起，不上綫，不想讓朋友給我說一聲生日快樂，因爲我怕，我怕原來從來沒有能記著我的生日，我更害怕這種給遺忘的感覺會加深我靈魂深處的寂寞，這樣的刻意的和外界隔絕，仿佛這就能讓我自己能好過一點似的……
溫卓斌，祝生日快樂。
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I don't even know how I am going to celebrate my b-day this year. This year, I am divorced. This year, my b-day is on a holiday (in US). I thought of going back to HK. But who is going to celebrate my b-day with me? My friend in Germany said she will throw me a b-day party. But I really don't want it because what I want is different.... When I was in my 20s, my co-worker said to me that she was glad that she made it for another year. She was in her 30s. I was surprise of what she said. And now, I am in my 30s. I finally understand what she meant. Life is so fragile. We should be glad that we made it to another year. Happy Birthday... Alex! |
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